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The Eye of the Storm

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 They said that nothing would happen. It was okay to feel safe. Even knowing what had taken place the last time, they said it would be okay. We went to bed believing this with little preparation for what was to come.  Everything had been so calm and beautiful. Never had I felt such feelings of peace and contentment. This was the life I had always wanted, and I was so close to having it all. We were so close to having it all. Whatever home felt like, we finally felt it. We felt peace. And excitement for all of the happiness that would be ours in this life after so much pain and suffering and betrayal. We had finally found a soft place to fall, where we could feel protected, and loved, and secure. We believed that we would never have to go through the heartbreak again. It was a beautiful dream. All of the plans that we had made. All of the adventures that we would go on together. All of the love that flowed so easily and effortlessly.  I suppose that for nearly a year this was the calm.
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Summer Pumpkins

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 It is my favorite night of the year. Every year. And no Halloween night had ever been more magical than the one and only year that I spent it with you. You helped us get into our dresses and our wigs and our crowns. You lifted us into and out of the car in our extravagant hoopskirts. And you held my hand as we followed behind my babies through the neighborhood collecting candy and walking through homemade haunted garages. There had never been such a Halloween night for me, as we walked and talked about how next year you would dress up with us too, and every year thereafter. The October air felt lovely and hopeful for the first time in a long time. I loved you so much. You told me that you loved me too. There were pumpkins on the porch. You bought one of them. My 8-year-old daughter painted it like Pennywise the clown. There were two others, painted to look like a scene from Stranger Things, and another painted as The Nightmare Before Christmas. After the most amazing Halloween night,
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